Like many of you, since the Announcement, I’ve felt a jumble of emotions — bouncing around to every stage of grief and back again. So many doubts, questions, angst, moments of peace then back to foot stomping, lol.
Then, on Saturday, I attended the funeral of a close friend’s mom. On Sunday, I visited with my friend to make sure she was doing okay. Helped put things in perspective for me. And then at Mass, the priest gave a sermon that I felt was meant just for me (as the best ones usually do 🙂 ).
He spoke about the three wise men at the Nativity and their “journey of faith.” He said that anytime we follow the innermost desires of our heart, even if they defy reason and seem irrational to others, we’re on a journey of faith. That anytime we shut out the noise of the world to deepen our relationship with God, we’re on a journey of faith. That anytime we feel ourselves fill up with pure love, we’re on a journey of faith.
Afterwards, I couldn’t help but think about this fan journey we’ve all been swept away on … the highs, the lows, the people we never would have met otherwise, places we never might have gone, other cultures, faiths, ideas and points of view that we might never have explored or made an effort to understand.
And even though we have no idea why this crazy ride happened to us, that didn’t stop us from leaping aboard with both feet to follow every song, concert, interview, tweet, random sighting, appearance or vlog David’s made. A journey of faith indeed.
I’m still not ready to go back to listening to David’s music… but I’m almost there. That’s what I miss most. The joy it’s always brought me. And will again. I do have faith in that.
P.S. I stumbled across this post on Tumblr and it was so honest and heartfelt, I wanted to repost it here (I hope 1specialsong doesn’t mind):
David Archuleta- “I’m Trying To Be Like Jesus”
So I’m watching this video again- just randomly and I’m really staring at the screen instead of just listening to his voice- which is something I really like to do. I’ve kind of already said this before, but I must post about it again. If you really stare into his eyes during this performance, the last show of his My Kind Of Christmas Tour (the last tour stop for two years), before he leaves for his Mission, you can’t help but to be taken back by the light that is in him. Any Archies know that this was the show after he announced his Mission intentions, and God, I am so touched by how at peace he looks with himself, so happy and serene he looks, and the light that is shining through his eyes- even more than usual makes me so happy I want to cry. That might seem like a contradiction, but seeing David, someone I love, so happy is all I ever want to see from him. He makes me (and us) so happy all the time, and he deserves to do this- because it is going to make him happy. This song choice, right after his announcement, proves to me, how serious he is about this decision- and I am at peace within myself knowing how excited and happy he is to do this. Now, I sit here, covering my face, trying to make it look like I’m not crying because his whole heart and soul is on display in this song. All his intentions in doing a Mission are honest and true- all he wants to do is try to share how much Jesus and his Church means to him and knowing that makes me so happy. Knowing that he is going to do something that means so much to him and having no doubts in his mind are truly the most comforting things for- anyone, let alone a fan- to know. I am so happy for him, and I will let NOTHING make me resent him, his decision, or anything else…I will let NO DOUBT creep into my mind that hasn’t already because dang it, I love him and I just want him to be happy. Sorry. These are my feelings and I just felt I should say them because I was watching this video that always touches my heart in ways I can not describe, sorry. Please forgive me.