Journey of faith

Source: Tumblr/ilovechudavidarchie

Like many of you, since the Announcement, I’ve felt a jumble of emotions — bouncing around to every stage of grief and back again. So many doubts, questions, angst, moments of peace then back to foot stomping, lol.

Then, on Saturday, I attended the funeral of a close friend’s mom. On Sunday, I visited with my friend to make sure she was doing okay. Helped put things in perspective for me. And then at Mass, the priest gave a sermon that I felt was meant just for me (as the best ones usually do 🙂 ).

He spoke about the three wise men at the Nativity and their “journey of faith.” He said that anytime we follow the innermost desires of our heart, even if they defy reason and seem irrational to others, we’re on a journey of faith. That anytime we shut out the noise of the world to deepen our relationship with God, we’re on a journey of faith. That anytime we feel ourselves fill up with pure love, we’re on a journey of faith.

Afterwards, I couldn’t help but think about this fan journey we’ve all been swept away on … the highs, the lows, the people we never would have met otherwise, places we never might have gone, other cultures, faiths, ideas and points of view that we might never have explored or made an effort to understand.

And even though we have no idea why this crazy ride happened to us, that didn’t stop us from leaping aboard with both feet to follow every song, concert, interview, tweet, random sighting, appearance or vlog David’s made. A journey of faith indeed.

I’m still not ready to go back to listening to David’s music… but I’m almost there. That’s what I miss most. The joy it’s always brought me. And will again. I do have faith in that.

P.S. I stumbled across this post on Tumblr and it was so honest and heartfelt, I wanted to repost it here (I hope 1specialsong doesn’t mind):

David Archuleta- “I’m Trying To Be Like Jesus”

So I’m watching this video again- just randomly and I’m really staring at the screen instead of just listening to his voice- which is something I really like to do. I’ve kind of already said this before, but I must post about it again. If you really stare into his eyes during this performance, the last show of his My Kind Of Christmas Tour (the last tour stop for two years), before he leaves for his Mission, you can’t help but to be taken back by the light that is in him. Any Archies know that this was the show after he announced his Mission intentions, and God, I am so touched by how at peace he looks with himself, so happy and serene he looks, and the light that is shining through his eyes- even more than usual makes me so happy I want to cry. That might seem like a contradiction, but seeing David, someone I love, so happy is all I ever want to see from him. He makes me (and us) so happy all the time, and he deserves to do this- because it is going to make him happy. This song choice, right after his announcement, proves to me, how serious he is about this decision- and I am at peace within myself knowing how excited and happy he is to do this. Now, I sit here, covering my face, trying to make it look like I’m not crying because his whole heart and soul is on display in this song. All his intentions in doing a Mission are honest and true- all he wants to do is try to share how much Jesus and his Church means to him and knowing that makes me so happy. Knowing that he is going to do something that means so much to him and having no doubts in his mind are truly the most comforting things for- anyone, let alone a fan- to know. I am so happy for him, and I will let NOTHING make me resent him, his decision, or anything else…I will let NO DOUBT creep into my mind that hasn’t already because dang it, I love him and I just want him to be happy. Sorry. These are my feelings and I just felt I should say them because I was watching this video that always touches my heart in ways I can not describe, sorry. Please forgive me.
~ 1specialsong/tumblr

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21 Responses to Journey of faith

  1. 🙂 Thank you. Yes, I feel the same way. Happy that he’s found his way. We all deserve to find our way, he found his, and we’ll keep on with our journey as well. He’s made a positive impact in our lives, and he is unforgettable.

  2. Heidijoy says:

    Wow! The sermon and that song touch my heart and soul. I was fortunate to be there to hear David sing this song and there are no words to describe the tenderness, feelings and lessons in the song for Christians and non christians alike. David lives his faith and I can just hear him sharing these lessons wherever he goes.

    Whenever your ready Tofan, I suggest “This Christmas” SLC to start watching videos again. I watch it at least once a day to get my groove on. I’ve gradually been able to enjoy all the songs again. ….and the jam of Waiting On The World to Change is so great. (such memories from audition to Beaver Creek)

    Glad you and others are here to enjoy this journey together. There is more to come -of this I am sure!

  3. dangitdavid says:

    Love this post Tofan….you have said what probably many of us are feeling but don’t know how to put into words! I loved the description of emotions….”bouncing around to every stage of grief and back again. So many doubts, questions, angst, moments of peace then back to foot stomping”…lol I’m glad I’m not the only one feeling like this!! I swear to God I’m perfectly fine one day and then back right where I started the next! I’m going to admit though that the foot stomping does help 🙂 And there’s abosultely nothing like putting things into perspective to help ease the pain. I can’t explain the affect David has had on me but I jumped into this journey as well with 2 feet and have never regretted one single moment. I am able to listen to David’s music but that still doesn’t stop the tears from flowing once and a while (that dang Falling Stars gets me every time)! I’m actually hoping David starts this journey soon because the sooner he starts, the sooner he’ll be back and then we can all embark on the next journey with him, wherever or however he decides he’s taking us next because seriously, we know we aren’t going anywhere while he’s gone!!

  4. tawna21 says:

    TOfan, I love this post. I just love it. What else can I say? Thank you.♥

    Your priest’s sermon—perfect! I’ll bet he didn’t realize the comfort he was giving you.

    Tawna

  5. abanana77 says:

    Love this TOfan! “anytime we follow the innermost desires of our heart, even if they defy reason and seem irrational to others, we’re on a journey of faith” –> so agree!

    (((hugs)))

  6. betsy says:

    You are such a good friend.
    Journey of Faith, love it.
    Thanks for reposting the tumblr writings. So heartfelt.

  7. refnaf says:

    ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((TOfan)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
    No words right now

  8. i’m still in denial but i’ll get there.. soon.. lol. lovely post as always TOFan. {hugs}

  9. gloie says:

    This was all wonderful! I don’t even know what else to say . . . but thank you!

  10. Angelica says:

    What a sweet, heart-felt post, (((TOfan))) I know this journey will take you to the other side of down. I have been listening to this CD everyday. It seems to chronicle his journey of faith the past year and I find comfort having his voice near. I know in time, you will too.

    Wait….

    Only wait a while and listen.
    Music of hair,
    Music of pain,
    music of looms weaving all our loves again.
    Be there to hear it, it will be the only time,
    most of all to hear,
    the flute of your whole existence,
    rehearsed by the sorrows, play itself into total exhaustion.

    Galway Kinnell “Wait”

  11. TOfan says:

    Thanks, guys, I know we’re all in the same boat, one way or another. Angelica, what a beautiful poem, perfect, thank you. ❤

    Gotta say, picturing David pretending to be a tree or miming walking up stairs or other kooky exercises for his acting class is cheering me up immensely. 😆 😆 😆

  12. TOfan,

    Come to Manila for a while?

  13. TOfan says:

    “Headed Back to Manila to Act” 😆

    More info:
    Headed to the Philippines later today! I’ll be arriving this week to start a new adventure in acting haha. I’m nervous, but also really excited to try this new experience. I’ll be doing a mini-series for TV5 and will be filming in the Philippines for the next few weeks. Hope everyone has had a good start to their year and I’ll talk to you guys when I arrive in Manila!

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  14. peppertara says:

    Just got to read your beautiful post TOfan, a journey of faith is exactly what it is. Ah, a perfect sermon for you to hear and that lovely, heartfelt post on Tumblr…and David’s beautiful ITTBLJ….all of it quite perfect.
    For me, I am actually fine with his decision (after the initial shock of it). I know he needs to do this and I also know he will return in two years.
    I guess two years doesn’t seem so long to me now. If those I loved and lost in this life were only gone for two years it would be pretty easy. Life is all about change and growth however and we know that David will return. I guess looking at things that way makes it easier, he will be back!
    That is my own personal feeling though, everyone deals with it in their own way and every feeling and emotion is very valid. ❤ I do know that it will get easier for everyone and we'll keep the faith!
    Now you have me picturing David in acting class….haha. Can't imagine how sweet that is. 🙂

    Sweet blog! David seems very excited about this new venture in his life, happy for him and….
    for all the Filipino fans! Am sure he will have a great time and will keep us updated.
    Safe travels David and glad that the leading man is going to a place where he will receive lots of love. 🙂

  15. TOfan says:

    New post/thread!

    🙂

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