Not remotely funny

I apologize in advance if you came here hoping to see something funny… I’m a jumble of emotions today.

I know many of you who’ve lost loved ones to cancer have found it particularly hard to watch the Nandito Ako scenes where Holly’s in the hospital. That hit me hardest on today’s final episode.

It took me back four years when I had to say goodbye to one of my dearest friends in a hospital room not all that different from Holly’s…except it was real. The night of her funeral was when I heard David sing for the first time … Shop Around.

And now NA is over, David’s going away for two years and I know one door closes and another opens, as it did that day four years ago for me, but I just needed to … I don’t even know….

I do know I want to give a big thank you to everyone who’s ever dropped by here, shared your stories, your comments and your love for David. I’m not closing down or anything I just wanted to say that while I thought of it because, as David keeps reminding us, you never know how long you’ll get the chance to do that.

Mahal na mahal na mahal kita.

on a brighter note 🙂

Forevermore liner notes (thanks … once again, lol … to JR4DA… rest of booklet HERE.)


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26 Responses to Not remotely funny

  1. Kizzi says:

    {{{HUGS!}}} TOfan. Thanks for all that you do and sharing the many facets of your heart and soul. Your blog is a fan world oasis for sure.

  2. djafan says:


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  4. Lynnella says:

    I’ve read your many articles and laughed out loud at them. However, today is not the day for that, I totally agree with you. I haven’t lost anyone to cancer yet, but my best friend from high school is battling stage 4 colon cancer right now. David is a bright light in an otherwise dark time in my life, as I’m sure he is in other’s lives too. TOfan, I will continue to follow your blogs and wait, hopefully patiently, until David returns. Thanks for all you do……Lynne

  5. betsy says:

    Hugs & tears. <33

  6. abanana77 says:

    The biggest (((hugs))) to you TOfan. Am so happy you turned on the tv that day 4 years ago and found David. & all the love and joy and friendships it’s brought you ever since.

    Mahal na mahal na mahal kita to you too. <333

  7. Pastel says:

    So beautiful Deb. Isn’t that amazing about the door shutting, another opening? So true! Well said, as always. Everything you say is well said <333

  8. Thank You Tofan, Glad you will be staying. I appreciate your perspective not only in the fun times but the more serious side as well. Loved the Finale, painful as it was at times, it was beautiful too.
    Lots of love, friendship, and lessons for us all.

    So happy Anya and Josh got together!! Holly appreciated her moments and the length of friendship her friends went for her. Very touching scenes.

  9. refnaf says:

    I CAN NOT give you a big enough ((((hug))))) and I am so thankful that David brought our journeys together, you are awesome jsyk

  10. awestruck says:

    My love and hugs to you TOfan

  11. Kathleen says:

    Thank you! I follow this site and I lurk here alot! I don’t know what I’d do with out my fellow David fans! Especially in these next 2 years. We will need each other as we wait for David’s return. Supporting him and all those who support him, is the best way to show ouor appreciation! David’s fans are truly some of the most wonderful people I have ever met! 😉

  12. emmegirl14 says:

    {{Two-armed hug}} and lots of gratitude for you and this special place.

    I know I would go a little crazy in the next 2 years if it weren’t for the love and support of you all.

  13. canarchaudry says:

    Dear Tofan…Thanks a million for letting me lurk and comment here once in a while. you are such a great captionist, it made my day coming here to lighten up the day:) Thanks a million to David without him, we will all not be here gathering or lurking with one thing in common..that is, the love of David’s music we all share…and the love of what David does to us all.

    Grateful to have met you, Refnaf, Kizzi, Pastel, Abanana77 and other Canadian Archiefans in New York MKOC tour 2011 <333

    • TOfan says:

      canarchaudry!!! I loved seeing your Earth shot in the fan video! It was awesome meeting you too (and your sister in Westbury) and I know we will again!!! <333 I'm curious, do you think your sis will like D's OPM album? 🙂

      • canarchaudry says:

        Glad you liked the Earth shot haha…Loved your group shot with the Canadian flag too!!!
        You are so kind, sweet and funny …I would love to meet you again sometime!!<333

        I think my sis will like D's OPM album…going to get her one:)) David is an amzing balladeer, he really is!

  14. Anonymous says:

    These last few episodes were difficult for me to watch too because I had breast cancer 5 years ago! Thanks TOfan for being so funny, yet serious at the appropriate times. Your words always make my day! David has brought together fans from all over the world! I’m not from Canada but a small town in Utah called Brigham City. I’m still emotionally recovering from the last episode of Nandito Ako because it was heartbreaking! Also, feeling melancholy about David’s upcoming departure but it is good to know we all have a place to go to let our feeling out!!

    • TOfan says:

      Sunny, I can’t even imagine what it must have been like for you to watch those scenes. But you’re a survivor!!! … I love seeing fans from all over the world connect and share, I find it truly beautiful.

  15. Sunny says:

    I’m not really Anonymous but I clicked the post comment box before I filled out my name for the comment at 12:59 am.

  16. sweetonda says:

    Deb, thank you for your heart felt post. Hugs to you and everyone else who has lost a loved one to cancer.

    So glad you will continue this wonderful site. Love my Canadian friends. 🙂

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